I was left to my own devices for most of this past weekend.
My usual hiking partners were all doing other things: The guys partook in the 2012 Maui Open disc golf tournament that happened up in Polipoli all weekend [Ben and Zak have been playing for years and it sounds like it was a blast], and Mom’s been nursing a knee injury since the middle of last week.
The weather was gorgeous, so rather than stay at home, I headed out to meet up with friends on the North shore for a beach day. By the time we got there, though, it was so windy that I quickly gathered my stuff and headed on the road looking for a solo adventure.
The past few days have been pretty rough for me emotionally [pregnancy-related depression?] and I felt a real need to reconnect with the ‘aina. The West Maui Mountains were crystal clear that day and I could feel the river calling me… so I followed the call into ‘Iao Valley, where I went for a short hike to a secluded spot on the river.
‘Iao Valley is especially meaningful for me and just being there lifted my mood and brought me back to my center. I sat there for a while with my feet dangling in the ice-cold water, and before I knew it, I was sobbing.
I visualized all my fears and doubts – about the pregnancy, school and work, and the future – leaving me and drifting down the river with my salty tears. And I envisioned love and faith filling in the empty spaces left behind.
It’s amazing how the Universe supports me when I just seek support and ask for guidance.
I’m not sure how long I sat there – the sound of rushing water and the simple expansion and contraction of my chest took over and time was no longer relevant – but when I finally opened my eyes and looked around, I realized that I was surrounded by nourishment. Literally, there were ripe guavas staring me in the face.
I had to chuckle because of how ironic it was: I hadn’t even noticed the guavas when I got there, but – yet again – the Universe always provides me with an abundance of exactly what I need, when and where I need it. It was a reminder for me that I am surrounded by love and support, an overflow of resources to have a healthy and happy pregnancy. I have everything I need to live my best life possible, now and always. Even on solo adventures, I’m not alone.
I took my time walking back, thoroughly delighting in those nutrient-dense guavas and paying close attention to the world around me – which I had mindlessly scuttled through on my way to the river.
[A dried up jackson chameleon I found on the path.]
By the time I got back to the car, I felt like a completely new being. Refreshed and rejuvenated and filled with love. I’m so grateful to have places where I feel safe and nourished, and where I can go when I’m feeling overwhelmed with life. I’m sure it’s wonderful for the baby, too.
Where do you find solace? What do you do when you’re feeling overwhelmed?
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